The following links direct you to a 40-minute-or-so documentary called “Children Full of Life.”
This video is a beautiful illustration of how human beings can be close to themselves and one another, allowing for the full range of emotions and differences. Acknowledging, sharing, and releasing suffering, rather than burying it and running from it. And ending up together in love.
Part 1 (9:45) http://youtu.be/armP8TfS9Is
Part 2 (8:02) http://youtu.be/Oc7S8HAfDzk
Part 3 (9:46) http://youtu.be/jd7YWx7idfE
Part 4 (6:39) http://youtu.be/OEW65OKRiAk
Part 5 (5:54) http://youtu.be/5FGdXEBcdh4
May we all be children full of life.
I want to be the kind of person that gives strangers the benefit of the doubt. Who is inclined to trust until there is real evidence not to. The kind of person who is whole in herself regardless of who or what she is currently attached to. An encouraging person. Someone who does not contribute to needless aggression or pessimism. Someone who acts out of genuine excitement and engagement, not out of pressure, obligation, or fear. Someone whose life is an end in itself, who does not wait to be validated in order to feel permission to live fully. I want to relax into and own the freedom that I already have. I want to let go of all of the reasons I tell myself I can’t be free just yet. I want to let the chips fall where they fall when I refuse to leave myself anymore. It may feel like someone can take this from me, because it was taken over and over again when I had no power. I didn’t have the space or safety to be to able to choose how to be with myself. But it’s not true anymore and never will be again. If I stay with myself, stay on my own side, I may experience a stomach in knots over someone yelling at me or firing me or condemning me.. But the knots will pass and what will remain is how I be with myself. It could be me tending to my own pain, instead of me trapped in so many stories of why I deserved it or how I was wronged or how I am irrevocably fucked. It could just be another experience in a lifetime of unique experiences. This lifetime that could have the common thread of me loving myself, and loving life because I open to it and feel myself open. Feel myself open.
What the world needs is people who are living in a way that makes them happy. More than the world needs you to recycle, join the Peace Corps, or give to the poor, the world needs YOU to live your one life the way you truly want to. When you live life in a way that turns you on, you shine light in more ways than you could if you live trying to “do the right thing” or “succeed” or “be good” in ways that aren’t true to you. It may be the truest thing for you to join the Peace Corps, and if it is, let your heart take you there. It also may be the truest thing for you to decorate cakes. Your joy will awaken equally if what you choose is in accord with what you really want.. and joy naturally leads to compassion – which is actually the core of what’s needed in the world.
Remember the quote about how lighting someone else’s candle takes no light away from your own. It is not selfish to make sure your own candle is lit first – indeed, this is the only way you’ll be enabled to truly give.